Saturday, September 15, 2007

Time out.

Nakakapagod na mag-senti. Madalas, kapag nakikinig ako ng kanta sa phone ko, e 'yung mga upbeat songs na malungkot 'yung lyrics ang pinapatugtog ko. Tulad ng:

  • How Do I Breathe - Mario
  • Outta My System - Bow Wow
  • Do You - Ne-Yo
  • Stolen - Dashboard Confessional
  • Go On Girl - Ne-Yo
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Syempre, 'pag una mong narinig 'yung mga kanta, iisipin mo tunog hiphop o r&b, pero senti talaga 'yun. Pesteng mga kanta 'yan. Ayoko namang burahin sa phone ko 'yung mga kanta. At least ngayon, pinipilit kong hindi pakinggan 'yung mga kanta para hindi ako ma-aning. ;p

Hay. Sabi nga nila, "Pretending has always been easier than explaining."

There are times that I almost believed everything you've uttered, that everything you did was to make me feel better and to somehow paint a smile on my face. Somehow I forgot to stop make believing that all this is just a temporary high. I thought I had you, the same way that you had me. But I was wrong. So wrong that the impact broke and left my heart to pieces. Back then we had us. Now, we only have you and me and the things that happened in between.

Forgive me, I'll be tougher, I'll be smarter... I promise.

7 comments:

Maria said...

uy may nagsesenti hehe..

yes i agree dun sa pretending thing. sometimes it's hard to explain on how you feel. hindi ka namn nagiging plastic, but you're mood is jiving into the situation na magiging okay ka rin.coz the truth is, no one understands you better than yourself.

Meryl Ann Dulce said...

Wow, very well said. Yeah, nangungulit ako ng mga tao 'pag malungkot ako. Tsaka super masaya ako 'pag malungkot ako. Hehe. Ang gulo, what I mean is when I'm sad, I try to keep it to myself and pretend I'm okay. I try to make my friends laugh a lot para hindi nila ko kulitin about what I feel. So far, effective naman. ;p Siguro it's my defense mechanism: reaction-formation.

Duroy said...
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Duroy said...

Aw, cellphone yung pic... 5200 ko... :(

Anyway, it's better to sometimes show what you really feel, instead of hiding it. Kung may problema ka talaga, sabihin mo sa mga friends mo. If you try to hide it for a very long time, or worse, not showing it, it will be bad for you.

Oo nga pala, napabili na ako ng bagong cellphone, 1110i nga lang... Hirap rin pag wala kang cellphone. :D

Meryl Ann Dulce said...

Hehe. Good for you. Sorry, hindi ko naman sinasadya. Well, at least you have one. Yeah, mahirap walang phone talaga. Nawalan na din ako ng phone before, stupidity.

Thanks sa comment. I really appreciate it. Hindi ko naman balak itago. Minor lang naman 'yun (haha). Really, salamat.

Meryl Ann Dulce said...

Duroy. You deleted a comment? Ikaw ba 'yun?

leeflailmarch said...

OC nga. Full names pa talaga ang nasa ballpen at correction tape.